I am so excited to blog this family session (I am striving REALLY hard to get better at blogging and posting what I am up to these days). Time gets away from me faster than ever. For those of my clients who haven’t been shared or blogged, I apologize from the bottom of my heart. My main goal is to provide you with your images in a timely fashion and the rest of my “free” time is spent taking care of my boys. In my full-time job and free time, my job remains the same {my boys}. Does anyone else ever feel like that? As much as I have been challenged by this,  I wouldn’t have it any other way because I know that the time goes by way too quickly and I really don’t want to miss out on their childhoods, or have to make a trip to the emergency room because I wasn’t completely PRESENT in ensuring their safety. LOL, we have enough of those even with my being a constant worrier. I know there are many moms out there who struggle just like me with the balance of life and I came to find out that the balance is what makes you happy and when my boys are happy, I am happy. They are happiest when they have my FULL attention at any given moment. Especially the ones they choose which always happen to be right when I embark on a “home” or “work” task. :giggle.

I was so excited to meet Adriana and visit one of my dear friends from highschool. We have known each other a very long time, lived in different states and can always seem to hop back on the friend track. Love you Kal! Did I mention how much I love lifestyle sessions? I have to thank my boys for this outlook on photography…I ensure you that without them, I might totally take a different approach to capturing those real moments. These girls are just beautiful and I can’t wait to see them grow up! I have a few options of boyfriends for them too. 😉 Kali and Josh, I hope you look back on your photos and can really be taken back to this time and feel the wonderful, stressful, joyful, incredibly amazing, heart burning (the good kind) time of bringing home and a new baby and raising young children.

Family Collage

 

 

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It has been a hectic past few months and I am sure it is not slowing down anytime soon now that I am also back to working! After you read my letter, if you make it through, please follow the blog circle with my amazing, talented friend Jill!

To my sweet Cohen. We anticipated your arrival for many months, 9 to be exact. I found myself wondering towards the end of those 9 months what you were going to be like. How much of your brothers would I see in you. How much of your father or of me. I can say with such wonderment that who you are is such a dream. The first time I held you I was instantly taken over by your immensely soft calming presence. In that instant, holding you really made everything melt away. I could feel your energy calm me down and just make me want to be HERE in every single moment. What is so wonderful is that everyone else that held you or came to visit after you were born noticed it too. “He is so calming”, “He is so chill”, “He has such great energy”.

You are now two months old, those days that stress me out, I hold you and feel instant relief. This powerful energy you have to make me feel safe, secure and melt away everything around me except you, is so therapeutic. I am just smitten by you as you continue to grow. Those eyes, you have such beautiful and mesmerizing eyes. I believe they will blue (which is funny because your brothers have hazel/green eyes and the other brown). I love to watch them as you study your surroundings and take in your world. Just like for your brothers I hope to capture YOUR world as you discover it. That is why you will see this camera a lot!

Your facial expressions crack me up and make me laugh lots throughout the day. When you wake up in the morning you are so calm and greet me with wide eyes,  patiently waiting while I take care of your brothers. Once it’s our turn you greet me with those eyes and when I start talking to you, a smile that’s so handsome and brings me even more happiness. You are such a talker and we have lots of conversations. I promise to always be here to listen and hope these conversations will only continue to grow.

You really have made our family feel so complete. There is no doubt that your brothers love you. I’m sorry they are constantly in your face but this is proof of their love. They often argue or fight over who gets to touch you. I watch as the bonds form and the love evolves between you three. Our life is nothing short of crazy but so spectacular and amazing because it is our crazy. I strive to embrace this time we have together even though some days are challenges. On those days there you are, reminding me to be present in the moment and to enjoy each daily journey down to the second. There are days I get glimpses of those seconds starting to fade longer into minutes and hours as each of you grow. The needing me every second will start to drift away (eeek). I wouldn’t change for the world all of you needing me now every second because I know that I won’t get those seconds back. They all count, every single one of them.

To my boys, I am so thankful to be your mommy. I love each of you for who you. It is so incredible to watch our family dynamic evolve with all three of you.

Cayson you are so observant, caring, hard working, love deeply, think thoughtfully, remember everything and nothing short of amazing my soon to be 5 year old. You love to snuggle, take in your world with such light every single day, are so creative  and you adore your daddy. We have amazing conversations and I love our special time when we get to have it. You are my big helper these days and I appreciate you so much for that.

Canden you are so loving, mischievous, curious, and innovative. Just when I think I have you figured out and clear everything from your exploring path you find something else I didn’t think of. You keep me on my toes and will keep me young! Your smile, dimples and big eyes break me down and make me want to do nothing more but than snuggle you up! I love watching you explore and discover even though it takes up 99.9% of the day so I can ensure you remain safe. You love bath time, your “nun nites”, playing and discovering. You bring your little chair everywhere you can to reach higher places. When you stop moving long enough for a story and snuggle, I embrace it with my whole heart.

I love all of you for everything you are and especially for the unique qualities that distinguish you. Each of those qualities are what makes up the dynamics of our family and fills our days with challenges and joys. Both of which I love because it is you discovering your ways in this life. I promise to be here for all of it no matter what. I know I am not perfect but I promise that you will never have to question my love or how deep it goes for each of you.

I love you with all of my heart, you are perfect just the way you are.
Love, Mommy

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  • » letters to my sons : april 2014 Keeping up with the Jameses - […] is the sixth in a year long series of letters to my sons. Next in the group is Courtney Karban — please visit her site after mine to travel along the full […]ReplyCancel

  • Kelly Patton - Ohmigosh – you have your hands full! How truly blessed you are. 🙂 Wonderful images and beautiful letter.ReplyCancel

  • Dawn Rosario - Courtney this is a wonderful letter!What a gift to your boys.I wish I had started this early with my children.I wrote a letter to my daughter at 16 and my son at 18 and boy do I find myself emotional as they are growing up and ready to start new adventures away from home tears!! Keep up the good work you are a great mom!ReplyCancel

    • cour9284 - Dawn you are so sweet. Thank you!!! This means a lot to me. This letters are as much a gift to me as they are to them. I never want to forget these moments either. I can not imagine what you are going through with your kiddos and the journey of adventures they are about to embark on. I may just decide to not let mine grow up!ReplyCancel

It is that time again for us moms of boys to write our monthly letters to them. I am so honored to be among such talented, caring, heartfelt moms and the common bond we  share in documenting our boys. Don’t forget to make your way all around the circle. You can start by visit my talented friend Sarah in her letter to her son.

To my sweet baby boy and little love,

I just want you both to know how much I adore and love you. You are getting so big  and growing so fast and I get the front row seat to experiencing your life with you. I am so thankful that I get to be your mommy and spend each and every day with you. In my wildest dreams, I could not have imagined being a mommy to all boys and not miss out on your growing years. One of the best decisions I have made was to stay home with you boys. Our bond just continues to grow stronger and stronger and I learn more about the both of you with every passing minute. I can’t imagine my life not experiencing yours the way I get to. Cayson these days you are all about projects, science, putting together packages, wrapping presents (the Christmas bug bit you pretty good), throwing Birthday parties for your “guys” and shopping with daddy at home depot to build and paint things. Your caring heart continues to grow too. You love making cards for everyone in your family and your stuffed animals. You are so thoughtful and those cards really brighten our day. You wake up every morning, come in to snuggle, give me 3 kisses and say “Good Morning Mommy.” Then you proceed to do the same thing to my tummy and say “Good Morning Baby” and off you go. I love these special moments. Canden, in the last few weeks your imagination has blossomed and you are full fledged toddler. You never walk anywhere, you constantly run with a sense of urgency. You eat ALL day. Thankfully you really like fruits and veggies. You love to color, talk on the phone, vacuum and do whatever your big brother is doing, all with wanting mommy right by your side. When you aren’t doing any of those things, I am holding you doing what I am doing. We are best buds and you really are a mommy’s boy. I love the random kisses and the snuggles with your blankies.

Any day now, your little brother is set to come into this world and I can’t help but be elated by the thought of having the 3 of you together, all to myself. I may want to pull my hair out sometimes or just want to shower alone but as you proved tonight….you boys love me to no end and can’t get enough of me, That feeling fills me with so much joy and happiness that I forget about wanting to pull my hair out. This evening,  I headed upstairs to take shower and left you to spend time with your dad but before I knew it, the bathroom was filled with leggos, cars, a tent, magazines, scissors for crafting, pajamas and blankets. There you two were, playing away, daddy just hanging out and mommy wanting some alone time…who could really want alone time when they are so loved the way you love and adore me? You just wanted to be where I was. I am so grateful for your unconditional love. I am even more excited for this love to be shared with your little brother. Yes there will be wrestling throw downs and times that you don’t want to play with each other and that is ok. I know you will always look out for one another and be there for each other no matter what.

My love continues to grow for each of you every single minute. I am not sure how that is possible because the moment you were both born, my heart ached with such thriving love but somehow you both make my heart grow bigger and the love for you stronger and stronger. I love you both with all of my being and that will never change. You are perfect, just the way you are and our life is perfect just the way it is; challenges and triumphs.

I love you!

Mommy

Here you boys are, perfect just the way you are, in our daily life.

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  • Jill Cassara - What a wonderful collection of memories you have preserved!! So excited to watch your family grow through your lens!!ReplyCancel

  • Jo Clark - This was such a beautiful post! This line really stuck out to me, “who could really want alone time when they are so loved the way you love and adore me? ”
    Can’t wait to see you with all THREE of your babies in our next post!ReplyCancel

  • Sarah Roemer Davis - The crib and blanket and adorable babe – I cannot stand the sweetness of that image. They are all so amazing, but that one pulls my heart strings so much!!!ReplyCancel

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