“Letters To Our Children”. I love this time of month. There are so many things to say, but where do I start?
My dearest Cayson, in just a few weeks you are going to be 4 years old. I can say that I am saddened, excited and if I am being honest, a little bit scared. There are so many memories that I hold closest to my heart from these last 4 years, that my sadness comes from not wanting to let them go. At almost 4, you still love to hold my hand and need your mommy for encouragement when you feel reluctant to try something new. At almost 4, you say the cutest things that I record just so I can remember how sweet and innocent you are, despite the fact that you already have the “I know it all” mentality (a trait your dad says you inherited from me…I don’t think he knows what he is talking about. hehe). The other day when we were playing outside in the dirt piles, like you always LOVE to do, you told me you had to go potty. We were pretty much across the street from our house and I suggested we run back home to go to the bathroom but you had another plan in mind. With all of the construction going on in our neighborhood and bathrooms out on the street for the workers, you insisted that you would use the “quarter” potty really quick. I asked you what you were going to do, just to make sure I heard you right, and again, you said “Mommy, I will just use the quarter potty really quick, ok?” All I could do was smile.
At almost 4, you still have such a big heart and really want to help out any way you can. You love to mow the lawn with daddy, landscape with your own shovel and wheel barrel, fold laundry, put away dishes, organize your toys, vacuum, clean the windows, dust, feed your brother, and most recently take pictures <3! There is just no limiting what you want to help with whenever you can. It may take mommy and daddy longer to do some of these things than we would like, but we sure love spending the time with you, especially if it makes you happy. I also can’t help but adore the sense of accomplishment just beam from your body when you work hard and finish your task at hand.
At just about 4 years old, you are so impressionable and an observer by nature. You are the one who sits back and takes in all that is around you. Carefully, you process how everyone is doing everything and I believe this is the way you learn. Lately, your favorite movie is the The Sandlot and last week you had your first baseball game. You did so awesome at hitting the ball and playing in the outfield. In fact when it was your turn to play in the outfield you stood there with your glove high in the air. As I sat there watching, I debated if that was something daddy told you to do, then it hit me, you were doing what the little boy “Smalls” on The Sandlot did. It was so cute and I just love that you observed and made the connection of how it worked for him. Cayson you amaze me everyday with your brain and your stories, your love and your smile. At almost 4, your baby giggle still comes out in your little boy laugh and it just melts my heart.
Beyond 3 there will be new adventures, new friends, and so many new things to learn. I am here with you every step of the way as you create your journey in life. My wish is that you continue to evolve as the fun loving, kind-hearted, caring little man you are. I love that your confidence is growing but hope that you will still always be humble when someone tells you, you are awesome and accepting when they tell you that you are wrong. I believe in all that you are and all that you will become. I am so thankful to be your mommy. I tell you every night that “you are perfect just the way you are” and I always want you to remember that. I love you sweet baby boy!
If you dare, grab a kleenex (sometimes it is needed) and make your way around our circle to my extremely kind, fun and ever-so-talented friend Kristen to see her letter this month.